Mm... Happy Christmas, my minions who celebrate it.

And also, you ever have one of those moments when you really wish there were like.. 'dream video-recorders' or something? Yeah, I'm having one of those moments now.

Ah well.


<3

Everyone keeps asking me what I want for Christmas/Yule/Whatever and such. I keep telling them I really don't want anything, but they seem distressed at the fact I keep saying this.

So, I will be horribly picky and say;


I would like some character fanart from some OCs I play at [link]

Nathaniel Saiven
Averett (Saiven)
Ghost Knight
Kadek Celestia


Any of these...? There are lots of pictures of Nathan around. There are a handful of Averett images, but not in MY Gallery as I have yet to draw him. MultimediaPanda did some art of him, but I'm not sure any of 'em are in her gallery. Ghost has one image, and it is a 'teen' picture of him in my gallery. A head-shot profile thinger. Even though he looks only about 6/7 years old right now. Kadek is in my gallery only as his dragon-y self, and the only picture I am aware that exists in full of him I know is not uploaded anywhere. I have a partial picture of him, but you can best bet that will never be online if I can help it. >.>; Hideous.


You can also find character stuffs here: [link]

S'my gallery thinger on Gamers... probably easier than rifling through shit on dA if you're really persistent?


I don't know what else to say to you guys. ;-; ilu for the idea of wanting to get me things... but I have nowhere to really put anything at the moment, so buying me things is irrelevant.


Pictures are easily stored in cyberspace.




Is that okay?
It better be. x.x coz I dunno what else to tell you?



I'm saving up gold on gaia to get some presents on there for some folks. I don't have enough time to get all the gold I want to get... and some folks don't have gaia thingers... I wish I had enough time/energy/money/whatever to get all of my friends, everyone I <3, something for this holiday. But I dun have those things... well the TIME maybe.. but never the energy. >.<



Anyway... I'm supposed to be going to bed. So I think I'ma go do that.

/zonk!snooze

... one day, I will commission pictures of all my main characters. Like.. all of the characters I have that are in the Silvertail / Saiven / Celestia / ETC story-lines. I was thinking about this a lot lately, because I want to do a family portrait picture, but I really suck at drawing humans. I could do a pony-ized family portrait image, but that wouldn't make me feel as good. It would be a nice project to work on a human-bodied version, and I think I might try to do that at some point but.. okay back to the original thing...

Commissions.

Now, some people do commissions only, but some people do art for art. But that's a huge task, because I have a lot of characters. And I have little money. Pretty much none right now, but I'll hopefully be doing the work thing soon, after I move to Indiana with my mom and , my sister. I know there are more important things to spend money on, but while some folks might think online game accounts and cigarettes are fun little things to spend money on, I'm more in the thought of spending my money on different things... like pictures, and stuff that means a lot to me.

Roleplay means a lot to me.

I think out of all the things that I do for 'entertainment', roleplay means the most to me. Roleplay is how I met almost all of my best friends. Roleplay lets me build and create characters and stories, and be there to watch their lives unfold. I have had my characters surprise me, and even now, I can look back and still be shocked by stuff. Through Roleplay, I have just... been engulfed in a world that makes Sense to me, and lets me Enjoy it. It's like reading a book, but the best thing about it is that I help create this book.. this world.. these people and events and .. I can read back on them later and go "Wow.. look how far this has come." I have seen characters change, and been a part of things so emotional and touching that I have cried real tears. D=

Even if you say "It's just fiction.." ... well.. you still cried when Bambi's mom got shot. That was fiction too, you know.


In any case, I want to spend money on this world that I have seen change and change and change, and been a part of the whole way.

But I don't know who is good to commission? I would LOVE to get a complete family portrait done by... oh.. say.. Saimain. LOL. But that is not only just way too expensive, it is impossible because she wouldn't do that kind of a task unless I gave her like 1,000 dollars, which I don't have anyway.

I want a good, quality artist... with nice prices... who might devote themselves to such a task. I mean, there are a LOT of characters, first off. Even if I were to pick a select few, or just go with the 'main' characters of the story/ies.. there are still many characters.

It's not the price I'm worried about so much as the fact that some people are unwilling to do such adventures in art. They don't want those tasks put before them. But some people are alright with it. Do any of you know artists that might take such a venture? I mean, I'd be willing to pay, of course.. NOT AT THE MOMENT, THOUGH.. But when I get a job, and can spare cash. It might be a year from now, but it's still on my mind. I want to do some research.

I might do the art in the meantime, myself.. make my attempt.. but...

... I really do want a good artist to do some character portraits, even if they don't do family portraits.


.... lawdy, but family portraits would be great. Alexis, Averett and Ghost, for instance. With Scarlet there, likely, since she is like a part of their little effed up family.

And Nathaniel with Sylvester, and the myriad of children around them.. and Shadow and Kitten, because they live in the Tower too... and Maple and Danial.. and I mean just.. blllaaaah so many characters.



Anyway, you can feel free to ignore this message, of course. But if you do know someone that might be willing to take on a large project like this, let me know. Or even if they don't do that kind of stuff, if you know a good artist with reasonable prices for up to 3/4 characters at a shot, let me know. I don't want backgrounds and stuff, though that'd be nice. I just want .. yeah.. characters.

I can't draw humans very well.. anatomy is faily-fail.

There needs to be more fan-art of this book series by Sarah Monette.


/thatisall

... I'd have that "I spend hours on art no one looks at" stamp or something.


I'm having a bummed out moment or something. I realized most of my pageviews were gotten because I posted link after link after link after link in a pony community over the years, and that people only clicked it because they couldn't see what I was talking about without clicking it.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone just comes to my gallery to look at my stuff, because they like my art. I mean, besides the handful of friends I have that look. I mean, does some stranger just come to my gallery because they like my art? Like, actually like my art? And keep coming back because of my art, not because of some other reason..?


.... I donno.

I just realized that... I make a bunch of art, and then sometimes don't even ever want to post it because I feel like there's no point. I don't feel like anyone really ENJOYS my art, unless they're my friend. Even then, some of my friends, it feels like more of an obligation to say they like it, just because we're friends. =/

Do you ever feel like this sometimes? I know I'm probably not the only one.

It just gets a little discouraging sometimes. Even though I know I create art for myself, but I like to share my world of art.. for what it's worth, anyway.


Maybe I should just write some short stories for a while instead.